Have you ever wondered what will happen to you after you finish your school and everything. Start to live in an adult world where working and money is the main priority for you. To me, working is not a problem at all but marrying does. I just don't feel like getting married. I just don't know why. Maybe because I've been living this life all alone. I have my family members but although they surround me, deep inside me, I'm all alone.

My friend once said to me, find the joy in you only then you can bring joy to others. Inside me, it's nothing. Just an empty space. Where I get to feel the joy in me for a while and after that, all the sadness, depression and everything negative comes in. I've getting worst every single day. Even one of my friend was worried about me and said try writing your problems on a diary cause that is what he did. I didn't tell him that I write my stuff over here, at this blog. Somehow, it's not just my problems that I'm writing but how I felt over the past few days, weeks, months, even years.

I can't seem to bond with my friends anymore. I've been keeping quiet at school and just doing my own thing and ignoring others. I don't feel anything. I don't feel sad, happy or any regrets that I'm in this situation now. If you read this, you might think I'm having some kind of major issues and most prolly need some counseling. I'm not even sure of myself. Maybe I need help, maybe I don't.






I just feel like giving up life.

still waiting @ 10:57 PM