There are times where I wanted to meet her and have a long chat or walk together since we never met the day after I finish my secondary school. We almost did actually. I did talk to her once in a while and asked her about her life and how are things going around with her new boyfriend and stuff. She said she wanted to meet me so I just said anytime. She gave me the time and the date and I was too damn happy to wait for it.

Here is the sucky part. It never happened. Cancelled on the very last minute and damn was I so furious about it. And why was I furious, cause it happens not once but quite a few times already. I don't know if she's trying to play around with my feelings or not but I'm really pissed about it. At the same time I try not to be anggry about it cause I really do want to meet her.

I was surprised to know that her boyfriend is studying in the same school as I am. What a coincidence eh. Until now, I'm still wondering who might her boyfriend be. Couldn't be me right? haha. At the same time what if she was to send her boyfriend to school ( that is so wrong ) and we saw each other. That would be great but at the same time it will spoil my mood seeing her with her boyfriend holding hands and bla bla bla. I sound kind of jealous.

Ok that's it. Enough talking about her. All I need now is to concentrate about my school. If not, I'll fucked up my future. Ever wonder what it will be like in the future? What will you work as or who will you be marrying and stuff like that? It's hard to tell whether I'm going to have a bright future or not but I wish to have one.


To Be Continued...

still waiting @ 6:38 AM